todays adventure

i dont know whats been coming over me lately.

i'm so annoyed by everything and i'm just waiting.

i dont know for what.

i'm still trying to figure it out.

but everyday.

its the same feeling over and over.

its not a bad feeling at all.

just that somethings missing.

i've been praying alot alot alot more than i have.

once Matt, my youth pastor, taught our leadership group some meditating skill,

i've been at it since that meeting.

its amazing, and it truly just heals you and replenishes your mind, body and soul.

its AMAZING.

lately, i've been just going through the motions, but i've been thinking about alot more.

i feel like, i'm looking forward to something..

i dont know what, i really wish i could figure it out.

but i've been praying about it.

my best friend emily gave me this journal.

that her mom bought from san francisco from the HIPPIE STREET!!

haa. i love that place.

but anyways, i've been having the toughest time trying to figure out what i want to use it as.

so finally, exactly a week later, i've decided to make it my adventure journal.

i made a list of all the stuff i want to do with my life.

i'm really excited for it.

another thing, i deleted my myspace account.

i'm sure glad as hell i did.

all it did was cause me to become angry and jealous and just plain out rude.

it doesn't do that to everyone i guess, just me.

so i had to cut off that source, that source leading me towards hate.

man, i really wish i could write down everything i've been thinking of, but i just can't..so much, maybe its just the growing process and everyong is going thorugh it.

who knows.

maybe i've gone crazy.

well.

i'm gonna play some guitar and read.

and play video games.

haa.

its part of my heeling process.

sense i'm not in that great of mood.

i love this blog thing!!

really lets me get out what i wanna say!!

haa.