Distance has never been on my side.

      I have never been good with goodbyes. I'm not one to show great emotion when a loved one departs, mainly for the purpose that i know that they are off to embark a new path in life which is a grand adventure in itself.  

Airports are possibly the best place to observe the many different types of goodbyes : the silent hug.  The wailing screamish cries. The heavy snotty snobs. the high five and awkward smile. the stare downand obnoxious wave until the person departing is no longer in sight.(usually done by my parents)  Then there is always 'the stare down until the person departing is no longer in sight, yet they still reminisce in that same spot, waiting'…i have always been so curious as to why they just stand there. I've come up with few conclusions, perhaps for them to return, or maybe they're just lost in thought, or maybe for some reason, they  just stop to be in that moment soaking it all up. to the point that when people like me are people watching/ creepin heavily them, they don't even care. they don't mind at all, they just want to stay in the moment of memories and admiration of the person who just left, even if its just for a little bit longer than usual just so they can avoid going back to living life without that person nearby.

Personally, my goodbyes consist of the awkward high five…maybe if your lucky, a lame joke, and if i really love you, a huggle.  No tears, nothing sentimental.

I'm no good with wearing my heart on my sleeve, so usually the awkward laugh instead of tears will do it for me.

Today i had to say goodbye to a beautiful soul that has come into my life.

For three months since the day i met this woman has been everything from nudey-bay swims- crashing random's parties taking pictures with nuns and having awesome conversations with drunk randoms.  For as much that could be done on an island of 8,000, we've nearly done it all.

We've bickered, we've fought, we've laughed, we drove, we talked,( oh how we talked) we prayed, we grew, and we've changed.

No matter what, we've had good times on the reg. 

God knows whats up, haha, He. JUST. KNOWS. WHEN. TO. PLANT. A. PERSON. IN. YOUR. LIFE. WHEN. YOUR. SEASON. IN. LIFE. MAY. NEED. IT. MOST.

so this blog isn't a goodbye, its the awkward high five, cause we'll hang again soon.

your awesome. STAYAWESOME. you know the deal, if you get here in march and are lame, punchy punch.

p.s. remember our chat last night/early morning? well looky what i found reading morning Jesus stuff..i found it quite fitting. Let this be my 'wisdom' to depart you on. haha, although its not me its actually in John 15:11-15  

"i've love you the way my Father has loved me. Make yourselves at home in my love.  If you keep my commands, you'll remain intimately at home in my love.  That'ts what i've done -kept my Father's commands and made myself at home in his love. "i've told you these things for a purpose: that my joy might be your joy, and your joy wholly mature."