12:06 am

At this moment,  I have realized I only hurt myself most when I compare myself with others.
At this moment,  I  have realized that what I have been wanting, has not what I have been wanting, but what they have been wanting.
At this moment, I have realized I actually DO what I want. I WANT to be home, huddled and away from the world so that I can improve everything that I have been putting aside.

- my thoughts

- my heart

-my health

-my money

-my responsibilities as a daughter, sister, and friend

-my realities I've managed to avoid

-my path

-my growing up

At this moment, I have inhaled realization and exhaled reality.

I'm not yet where or who I want to be.

Therefore I'll keep in hiding.

Until then, pray for me as I have been praying all along.

You know when I sit down or stand up. You know my thoughts even when I'm far away.  PSALM 139:2